Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in [insert clever name here]'s LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
2:45 pm	Eh, sorry I left last night. I just couldnt take a certain someones shit. I never update much anymore do I? Oh well. Sometimes I get so pissed off when I'm online. I need a new sn and and and. Shit, I'm getting sick. Yawn. And I wasnt trying to get out of the Europe tour by skating. ;\ I was bored and tired of sitting around. And I dont wanna sign onto AIM, because if a certain someone is online.. Forget it. I'm tired of holding back, I never have except on this subject because I know Benj wouldnt want me to say anything because its rude. But oh fucking well. Anything I say here, blame ME, not Benji.. Half of you do not deserve Benjis friendship, let alone him watching out for you. Excuse me if I forget anyone but... Jennie, Stephy, Megz, Niki, Jen, and maybe.. um yeah, no one else. Those people deserve everything he does for them. Any of you idiots vaguely aware of what he does for you? You could walk all over him, call him selfish, tell him to fuck off, basically anything and he'll still love you. He takes time out of his busy day, which some of you dont realize just how much he fucking works his ass off all day long, then he takes his own free time to get online and make sure every single one of you are okay. I've watched him online, and he could be falling out of his chair from exhaustion, which is usually the case, but if someone is upset, he'll do all he can to stay and help them. And wait, I apolgize, I did leave someone off that list. Devyn completely deserves to be included in that group of people I listed above. Anyone I didnt list, you should do something appreciative for a change and tell that kid thank you for every single day he has been there for you. If you're gonna make the excuse that you're too shy to tell him in IM, then you better be writing something in your journal. You all saw the song in his journal yet I bet none of you realize what it's about. And I know he hasn't told any of you the true meaning of it. He told me so himself. That song has a lot of pain in it. Not that you fucks would care. It's sad that so many of you are too blind to see a true friend when you have one. Benji isnt some famous guitarist to be taken advantage of, he's quite possibly the kindest, most generous and most wonderful person you'll ever meet. And I'm tired of Benji getting called an asshole/selfish/dick. He doesnt deserve anymore of this fucking shit. If one more person ever treats him wrong, you're gonna wish you never fucking knew me. Current Music: Rage Against The Machine... ;| (14 Commented | Comment )
Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
6:35 pm	Ow. My stupid battery died last night and I dont know where the fuck my power cord is. I should really charge it more. Fuck fucking fuck. I'm sick again and I cant sing. So yeah. Tell me if this world is alright. Why does every conversation end in a fight. Try to explain this life in black and white. I'm gonna see the sun rise today... Walking on Broken Glass. *nod* Lmao. I'm listening to my CD. I feel like Benji. Fucking fuck its cold. I should move to Florida. I'm such a buttcrack. I know I shouldnt be online. Exactly why I told everyone I wouldnt. And whoa I'm really on a wrong note in 2000 Miles. Ow. The computer kicks my ass. I know better than this, but sitting at home all alone sucks. Yeah, no ones fucking home, because I sent my family on vacation. I'm so fucking nice. ;| Where's Matthew? Haha, HE'S doing ALL the press stuff. XD Nick's out with his family. Jeremiah is in Chicago for a few days. Steve's working on his record. Josh comes over once in awhile, but we always start doing something stupid. I should get Aaron over here. AHHH! I want EJ. It's so cold. And you expect me to go to Europe!? HAH! No way. Not only because of the fact that I can't do it, but my spine would freeze and snap in half. I saved your asses on this tour but Europe is way too much. I'm sorry but the flight alone would kill me. Just from VA to IL was fucking hell. I write too much. I think some certain people need their ass kicked. Especially after last night. Fuckers. I should draw. Maybe if I had a pen. I threw my blue sharpie at someone in the airport. Someone get online dammit. Whoo! Mail! That took like all my energy to go get. ;| Let's read it! Actually I have a whole pile I havent even looked at yet. Internet bill. Yeah, I'm not paying that one. XD. 0o0oh! Cell phone bill... $74.86!? WHAT THE HELL!? Haha, I guess I forgot to pay that one last month. Uh, hmm, I'm pre-approved for a visa. I dont think I need anymore of those. Here's some more junk mail. OH! TEEN PEOPLE! I cant wait to read it!!!1 I'm kidding. Good Charlotte is the one with subscriptions to those magazones. Do I ever shut up? No. I'm just gonna keep typing and reading this dumb pile of mail. Except I really cant find anything interesting. Ow. This typing is fucking me up. But oh well, because theres only 3 people who actually have the stubborness to tell me to stop and they arent online. I find it amusing that people give up so fast. You would think you that all of you would know Benj and I well enough by now that you would know we do listen to people if you arent fucking assholes about it. And when I'm fucking hungry dont tell me I cant have food. If you knew anything about me you would realize that when I'm finally want something to eat I should fucking do it. I've lost so much weight. And now I'm holding a grudge, because I have the right to do so. And you can go and say "omg he hates me now" but you'll only be saying that because of my popularity, not because you actually wanted a friendship. So go fuck yourself. And you can all call me a selfish dick, but I think youre the fucking selfish one. Think about other people for a change. And no one should go and think I'm talking about them, because if youre the person I'm talking about, you'll know it. Okay, I think Im done ranting now. I luffs Stephy. Because youre always so nice to me. You actually care. coughcough. Unlike some others. I miss Benj. I wanna marry you again. <333 XDDD That Warped kicked ass. I hope we're on it together again this year. Just like before, fucker. Us, you fucks, NFG and Rancid better be there too. And NOFX! Dude! If the Desendants played again this year I would be sooo fucking happy. And I wanna see the Halo Friendlies again. Fuck, its cold dude. I remember when Circle Jerks were on Warped. They kicked my ass everytime I saw their set. And DBS! Oh, they were fucking great. We'd be sitting backstage, and they'd find a mic and just start a pit in the middle of a bunch of people. Speaking of mosh pits, if I have to instruct one more crowd of 10 year olds on how to make one I'm gonna kick some ass. At least the kids at Warped know how to fucking start a riot. Especially those pdx kids. *winkwinknudgenudge* Yeah I've seen yo ass in da pit bitch! And I'm expecting you to go to that GC show just to show those other kids how it works. They should get those Homegrown fucks on Warped and when I can jump around again, I'm gonna start a fucking circle pit outside every show. And my pdx fuck is gonna help. Who has moshing skills? Most of you fucks are too scared to push those dumbfucks around. Who taught you to be nice?!!?! Pft. Fuckers. Wow. I've typed a lot. And the more I type the more I hurt, but oh well. Uh oh, my cell is going off. And I'm not moving. ;| Haha, I look so funny with my mohawk down. I miss Rancid too. ;\ I've wrote some fucking crazy songs in the past few months. And, lmao, the MattLovato Revolution. You fuckers make me laugh. I wont be a part of it! Nope. Matt sucks! And and and. Yeah I'm not gonna givee you ideas Niki. I know youve already have plans in that smartass mind of yours. XD. Lmao, I remember when you started all that shit at Warped that one year. That was so funny. And that one show! "Steal from Good Charlotte, give to Mest"! And when you started running around Warped saying, "Fuct up visions in my head, Tony fucked Benji in his bed" Lmao. XD! How much money did you fucking end up getting for that!? I want a Mest Mosh Crew. They could tour with us like our techs, but be in charge of kicking the dumb peoples asses in the crowd and entertaining me. And then not only could I verbally insult people on stage but they could go kick people in the head for me. *continues typing* I'm obviously bored. Oh no. Not this song. ;\ The end of the world in front of me... This isnt fair. I cant sing right now. The things that I see never end... ARG. I. just. wish. I. could. sing. :||||| AHHH!! I havent touched my guitar since I've got home. I should but I dont think I can. I'm sick of the way I've been feeling. Waking up feel myself slipping. Acting strong only on the outside. Sleepless nights stare at the ceiling. When I do the backups on that song I sound funny. I hurt so bad now. Haha, I have a blow pop. I'm practicing. *nods* Its the only thing I could find to eat. I should go stay at Matt's. My aunt loves me. XD. Haha, I think so anyway... Fuck. Theres nothing to do. Maybe I should get off my ass and clean. Thats a possibility. My floor is dirty. I should vacuum. And do the dishes and pay my bills and walk my dog. I should feed my dog too. That might be a good idea. My dog is so cool. Yeah, where IS my dog anyway? If youre still reading this then you are a major loser. Although I doubt anyone reads this anyway. Pft. Okay, I hurt like hell and I'm gonna lay here half dead and scream 'fuck' until someone signs online. ;| Current Mood: crappy (1 Commented | Comment )
12:55 pm	TONYHO! I MISS YOU LIKE FREAKIN WHOA. and i wish things were back to the way they used to be. You guys with GC, and all the big emo problems and and and...UGH I just misss youuu tons and tonsss <3 comee backkkk. Love ya. -=Meggyz ( Comment )
Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
8:02 pm	Haha, okay so I never did get to tell you guys about the Norfolk show. Since it was our last show, we got silly on yo asses. All of us, including EJ and Merril, were wearing eyeliner just like Benji, and we did a cover of Lifestyles. Something like this... "Did you know when you're famous you could fuck your wife and theres no such thing as 25 to life." Hahaha. XDD AND THOSE GC FUCKERS!! Okay usually we come out on stage with Nightmare On Elm Street music over the PA, but those asses put 'Whats The Dillio' on!!! HAHAHA WE WERE SO NOT EXPECTING THAAAAAT! XDD! So, we got them back by totally untuning Benjis guitar right in the middle of the show. And Joel was saying how he would miss us, but failed to mention me, so I went up to him and kissed him, and he said "I hope I dont get AID's now." HAHAHA THAT ASS! XDDD! Damn those Dillio jokes! Haaha, I remember the time we did a parody of Little Things, and Benj and Joel were up on the balcony flipping us off. XD Person: Why didn't Benji do "Jaded" tonight? Nick: I don't know, Good Charlotte had to skateboard to Hot Topic to buy some hair dye and eyeliner. ( Comment )
Monday, October 27th, 2003
5:31 am	Young and the Hopeless World Tour 2003 - Finished like a mofo. Number of... ...successful moshpits: 0 ...times fuck word was used: 82097 ...hugs from Benji: 48 ...times I kissed Benji: 17 ...nights I passed out: 4 ...nights I fell alseep on Benji: 6 ...times I passed out WITH Benji: 1 ...guitar strings broke: 19 ...broken guitar techs: 1 ...nights Benji was spazzy: 5 ...times my phone was taken away: 2 ...GC CD's used as frisbees: 4 ...nights I was drunk: 36 ...times I almost fell off stage: 1 ...nights carried out of venue: 1 ...times I tried to quit: 5 ...prank phone calls: 18 ...days Nick stole my socks: 16 ...stolen chocolate chip waffles: 1 ...marriage proposals on stage: 1 ...security guards pants pulled down: 2 ...popsicles consumed: 4 ...bootlegged copies of Scary Movie 3 bought: 1 ...people I kicked out: 1 ...ex-girlfriends I told to fuck off: 2 ...times I saw Jere look at Matt all "kinky" like: 78 ...water bottles thrown at people who don't stand up: 12 ...oreos shoved down Joel's pants: 15 ...inappropriate comments made to press: 109 ...times we called Mark Hoppus to tell him Jer likes his ass: 4 ...times I kissed Jere: 1 ...boys I kissed: 3 ...kinky AOL chats: 9 ...random bands called to tell them we're bored: 17 ...nights we left the radio playing all night long: 12 ...times I got in trouble with managers: 3 ...times I ran around naked: 4 ...lost thongs: 1 ...times Cash ate Chris' food: 3 ...cartwheels done backstage: 36 ...times we got Josh to beat up Joel: 2 ...pranks pulled on security: 28 ...drumstick rapings: 16 ...bassists turned Canadian: 1 ...Canadians turned bassist: 1 ...times I whacked my amp into Andrews piano: 4 ...kidnapped Soco members: 2 ...times Matt and Jere ran off stage: 2 ...guitar sword fights: 2 ...broken noise gates: 1 ...times I whacked someone with my guitar: 36 ...fights with Benji: 5 ...broken mic stands: 1 ...snapped drumsticks: 42 ...times GC ate meat and didnt know it: 8 ...nights I had the time of my life: every single one. So... I'm going home fuckers. I probably won't be on too much in the next month. I don't want to move from my bed. But if everything goes the way it should, then I should see you more when we support GC on the European leg of this tour. But if you need me, or for some strange reason, miss me, have Benj call me. Although I don't see why anyone would miss my fat ass. I love you all like whoa. XD -Tonyho Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Allister. HELL YEAH! (4 Commented | Comment )
Monday, October 20th, 2003
10:44 pm	Benj, I kinda need my phone back you ass. I need to call my girlfriend, something you dont know how to do. HAHA. Uh oh, please dont kill me for that comment (15 Commented | Comment )
Thursday, October 2nd, 2003
10:13 pm	Happy Birthday Jeremiah! You fucking slut! ( Comment )
Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
11:18 pm	Today was fucking cool. I love touring. There were these people in the balcony, who wouldnt stand up, they were just sitting there, so I threw a water bottle at them. Hahahah! Yeah, although some of you kids need to work on your circle pit skills. I expect to see a fucking good one before this tour is over! XD! And Happy Aniversary Benji! Haha, and Joel and Billy and Chris and Paul! It's been one crazy fucking year. ( Comment )
7:20 am	Whee. I'm so happy. Why shoulldn't I be? I'm back where I'm supposed to be. On stage, playing shows. The kids out here are so cool too. Its always been cool opening for such a big band like GC. No one knows who the hell we are but the energy the crowd gives us is great. Although I have to admit I was kinda disappointed on the Chicago shows. Where were my mestcrapp kids!? One kid yelled "You suck", but I do have one good talent, and thats telling someone off. Especially on stage. I do believe it went something along the lines of "We suck? Well youre ugly. We can get better, but you'll still always be ugly". XDD Oh ow. ow. Yeah, I may still be a little banged up but compared to a month ago I'm great. I think its kinda funny the way we all freak out over each other. I mean, on any tour, we watch out for each other, but on this tour, you let out one little sneeze and everyone around you is telling you to go to bed. It may be annoying at times, but its all for a good purpose. So I guess I'll be like Benji now and be way overprotective... Poor Joel, he's so tired. He hasnt had a nice nights sleep since the tour started, and then add the fact that he's got a cold. Billy and Andrew too. Billy doesnt seem as tired though. but then he's not as stubborn. Usually he'll take care of himself but I did see him backstage once, so I just poked him and he lactually listened to me and went to bed. Benji though, hmm. You seriously need your ass kicked. And I'm sorry for being so rude about it the other night but I just dont want to see you have to cancel shows like I did. Although I know I'm overreacting. For playing two hours you do great. But you still dont have all your energy, and I dont like that. If I had my way, you and Joel would just stop being stupid and listen to me for a couple of days and you'd be great. Or at least Joel would. You, Benj, will take longer. I just dont want anything to affect your performances because I know thats whats important to you. *yawn* Yeah, I'm falling asleep while typing this. We've got a European tour coming up soon hopefully. And also, even though they obviously dont read this, I wanna thank my mestcrapp kids. You guys crack me up. Especially that "Steve Pictures" post. Lmao. I would of fallen out of my chair if it wouldnt hurt so bad. *flattens mohawk* Whoa, I kepp falling asleep. *hears matt, jere and benj yell at me* NO! SHUT YOUR FACE! I'm not sleeping. OKay so youre right, I'm a hypocrite. And Benji didnt really deserve that punch in the shoulder, but he did deserve some of it. I'm still mad at him for that threatening to make me go home. And threats about the Rancid tour wasnt funny either. ON that note I'm gonna go sit in a corner now. MestPunxRepresent! (I wrote this last night and it wouldnt post, but it took forever to write, so I'm sill gonna post it.) ( Comment )
Tuesday, September 30th, 2003
3:49 am	OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ( text ) I hurt so fuckign bad. ANd benjgfi beigns a fuckign asshole. ( Comment )
Saturday, September 13th, 2003
7:12 pm	MERRY CHRISTMAS This is the story that Staci and I wrote for you!!!! One day monkies took cheese and farted after blowing bubbles. They wanted to shove more grey poupon and mustard. Boobies and Bobbies are fun to smoke. Mommy said not to snort white feefers up their asses while eating woodchucks who kick wood. Flamingos who like to kill moo-moo's and narf-narf's. KABOING is a disturbing norfinkle of kerplunk. MOO cow MOO is a purple foof-foof that goes MOO and sounds poofie and weevil. Haunted and blue pigs like benji to run like a teenie who saw TONY! Tony is a SEXY ASS MOFO!!! WHEEEEEE is EEEEEEHW backwards like whoa with people who dont like JOEL. Joel is an oompa loompa that likes candy-corn on the part of his lunch-break. Yellow piss is smelly and looks like a lemon that has been squeezed too much. GREEN looks mean and lean like rino meat under zebra hooves that run fast through people that are moo cows of mofos! And the conclusion of this mooink story went over and out like a box that was filled with canned ham and grey poupon! Green pickles love penguins with pink beaks and brown heads. Never head to the bathroom after eating goober food. Luffs, Stephy and Staci <3 (1 Commented | Comment )
Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
4:28 pm	Ow. Ow. Ow. Yeah, that sums up my life since my last update. :| ( Read more... ) ( Comment )
Saturday, August 30th, 2003
2:27 pm	This is Dani, harassing your journal. XD Current Mood: bored Current Music: Stephy's singing! ( Comment )
Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
12:08 am	Interview 1. Do YOU have the magic stick?! XD Not me, but I know, I mean, I heard, that Benji does. 2.LYK OMG ITS TEH ATTAK OF TEH KANND HAM!?!?!1/1 OMFG NNOOOOO!!!11 IMA LYKE KIK UR ASS!!!!11 LOL WTF!1 3. Would you be scared if you were locked in the same room with me?! YES. I would be absoloutly horrified. *hides* 4. I'm gellin' are you gellin'?! JELLO MASTER! WHAT!? WHAT?! 5. How much wood would a wood chuck, chuck, if a wood chuck could chuck wood? What did you say? You have wood? Well, thats not something you should go around telling everyone... --------------- 1. Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed. 2. I will respond; I'll ask you five questions. 3. You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers. 4. You'll include this explanation. 5. You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed. (9 Commented | Comment )
Monday, August 18th, 2003
9:03 pm	I guess I have to add to the "How Benji Works" Guide. Now that Benj is happily in love with Kasper, he works a little different. He'll forget he even hurts. Thats not a good thing. This means he'll go about his day ignoring the pain more often and of course he'll be moving his equipment around despite the fact I told him not to. So as Matt said, you literally have to ask him how he feels quite frequently. Now he won't show his pain as much because he's so damn happy. So just assume he hurts. Instead of watching for his typos, you just plain have to tell him to go take some pain pills and/or go lay down for a few minutes. He should take those about every 4 hours. By him ignoring the pain and using his shoulder he's only causing it to heal slower. But...anyway, congrats on you and Kasp. You two smartass' go perfect together. ( Comment )
Friday, August 15th, 2003
11:39 pm	Hmm. I hurt but Im quite happy. Im not sutre if we're gonna cancel the tour or not. If I get MY way, we wont. Josh was over here, he has a sudden obssesion with Jello. Of course, he's Jer's brother so that explains it. Benj you little fuck. Why are you letting Epic and Daylight push you around?! You know better than that. How many years have you been dealing with those idiots?! Your schedules shoud NOT be that busy. You can just tell Chris and that other guy at Epic to shove it up their ass. Why are you scheduled for so many interviews?! And why do you have a week of pre-production? Haha, I dont have to show up for any pre production. Losers. But you really need to slow down a bit. When its to the point where its affecting your health, then you need to take a break. DONT MAKE ME TELL YOUR MANAGER! Hahaha. And to everyone out there who knows Benj, Im gonna tell you how he really works. Benj will not make good choices in his favor. For some reason you have to tell him. He's just like me. Do not yell at him. He's being rather cooperative this time. But he doesnt listen to his brother at all. When you see him twitch/shake/cringe/squeak, make typos or get really quiet, he's hurting. So unless you want Benj to end up like me and not be able to tour, you have to watch out for his ass. He has pain pills and anti-inflammatories. Make him take them. Ask him nicely and give him a good reason and he usually complies. If hes being unusually stubborn, hit the caps lock key and make him. You can do that online, but not on phone or in person, he gets stressed. Sometimes he'll fool you online when you yell at him, but its an act. Just keep telling him to take them. When he gets dizzy or tired. Make him go lay down. Even if its for 10 minutes. I'd do ths myself, but Ive been sleeping too much to watch out for his ass. It sure suck that I know you so well doesnt it Benj? Dont hate me for telling them how to get you to cooperate. I only did it because I care. And by the way, my guitar tech is better than yours. XD [EDIT] Ahem, this is Meggyz, and im here because it is my DUTY to let everyone know...that when he refers to helping Benj in these ways...well yea you might as well take those ideas into consideration when it comes to Tony himself. XD...I know Tony is probably going to yell at me cause im warning you guys. But...Its only for his best interest. AS WELL AS BENJI'S. I feel like a mother taking care of these guys....oh man, how pitiful =X I Lufffs You Tony <3 [/EDIT] [EDITEDIT] *waves* This is Stephy though I doubt I need any introduction... >x I really choose to wonder if you two are adopted fathers of Kayla and Niki, or if you two are my children and I don't know it. I seem to feel that I have to babysit you guys all the time. >p and you KNOW Meggyz that I make things easier for you, because in all honesty, I'm the only one who can break Benji's stubborn-ness. Even ask. XD You have to be nice to those crack heads or they won't listen to you. Which is why I reason, because I luffs them ever so much <3 <3. And dude, earlier, you really made Tony feel bad when you put your away message up like that. You have to realize he doesnt feel good, and no matter WHAT he says to you, you have to stay there for him. Comprende? =\ <3LuFFs To ALL you CrackheadS<3[/EDITEDIT] (10 Commented | Comment )
Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
8:24 pm	I have a fear of canned ham and this journal is extremely neglected. (2 Commented | Comment )
Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
6:40 am	BENJIIIIII IS NEXT TO MEEEEE!!!! (2 Commented | Comment )